It's a brand new day and a brand new way to explore me. As I sit and ponder what exactly I want to say, I can look around my house and see all the things that I want to change. Well, my house is the most obvious. Laundry needs to be done. Dishes need to be washed. Toys need to be put away. Most people would probably say, "Yeah, yeah - me too," but my need to "do" extends beyond those surface things. I need to wash walls - fresh paint if my apartment will let me. I need to scrub the floors and pray for a miracle for my carpets. Too many spills and too many "I'll-get-that-later."
But my living space is just one thing. I am starting this blog for several reasons. I want to keep myself accountable by logging what it is I do - or not do. I want this to be a time to stop and reflect. I want this to be a dialogue with myself that maybe one day other readers can relate to. It seems so easy to say things like "I want to change the world" but I am finding it hardest of all to change myself. I want to change the way I respect my living space. I want to change my weight and respect my body. I want to change how I interact with my family and learn to be more authentic and kinder. I want to change my approach to creativity (though that is a dedicated topic on my other blog). So you can see there are many, many things I want to change. And I'll be honest. I have no idea how to do all of this, or where to start.
So I start with my words, with my DESIRE to change. I start with picking up the laundry because that is easier than picking up the soul. My hope is that as I pick up one sock at a time it will have a ripple effect in my life.
I am going to be brutally honest here. In a world of social media where we post pretty pictures of ourselves and gloss over the messy in our lives, I want to be real. Like, really real. I hope others will not judge me as harshly as I judge me, which brings me to the change I ultimately want to see in myself.
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